Because The Lord Holds My Hand

I recently messed up, BIG TIME. And as always when that happens the devil likes to make us think we're not worthy of anything. The very day that this happened, Ellie started asking me questions about salvation, and the first thing that came to my mind was "Don't ask me, I messed up huge today I am in no way the person you need to talk to about matters like this." So I was honest, I told her I had messed up big and that she would too but that the Lord knew that we would, and he died for us anyway. It was an eye opening moment for me. I did mess up, He's not proud of it, but he still loves me. I know there will be consequences for a long time, there always are in matters like this, and they're deserved. But I take comfort in this...

Psalm 37:23-24

 ²³ A man’s steps are established by the LORD, and He takes pleasure in his way. ²⁴ Though he falls, he will not be overwhelmed, because the LORD holds his hand.

Heart of Stone

I don’t cry easily, I’ve even been told I have a heart of stone. It was said jokingly but the truth is I don’t cry easily. When I get hurt or mad I talk, usually to my demise. J Lately it seems like it’s just been one thing after another, just crazy things, things that shouldn’t bother me but do. I can usually tell when I’ve said too much because my friends or husband let me know, in nice caring ways of course, that they’re sick of hearing me, and they should be, because instead of talking to them I should be talking to the One who can do something about it. The Bible says in 1 Peter to “cast your cares on Him because he cares about you.” That’s my prayer for my life right now that I turn my cares into prayers because God really does care about me, he understands me and why these things hurt me the way they do. I don’t know why but He does and I know he will use it for His glory if I get out of the way, because He can use me, even if I do have a Heart of Stone. J